Dreaming in HTML

What Dreams May Come
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Yesterday I had web design class. This was not just any class. It was as my teacher put it "down and dirty" coding. I admit it, I have been avoiding the code aspects of learning to design websites, cause it is very intimatating to me. I never really grasped math concepts, so when I see math problems on paper, they all just sort of jumble, and I am overwhelmed. Well, that is how code seems to me, also. Just jumbling of symbols, and letters, that I did not have the answer key to understand. I like the creative side of designing the web sites, but I really wanted nothing to do with the coding of it all. Robert (my teacher) has other views. He creates sites in code, and feels that you have to know code to make clean, error free, compatible sites. He also was on to my stalling, and said, no more excuses, you're not getting out of it, You are going to learn how to code in HTML.
So, I cussed my self for this crazy web design career idea, and went to class. Poor Robert spent most of the class explaining everything four or five times. Occassionally he had to draw pictures for me, since I am a visual person. He would say "do you follow me?" I think to be nice, and I would say "no", so he would start all over. He was very gracious. Me, I would have quit on the spot, and said "lady, go back to nursing "cause they don't make web design in special ed, and you are hopeless". but he did not. So after a mind numbing two hours I finally understand the BASICS of HTML. More importantly I have pages of notes that I can refer back to when I forget what the heck I am doing.
Now, you are wondering what does that have to do with the photo? Well, since it was an exhausting day, I went to bed early, hence no post yesterday. Instead of resting, my brain decided to review, and assimilate all the information into my dreams, so I woke up this morning exhausted, having dreamt all night about code, in code, and with code. Sometimes it was the background of my dreams, sometimes the foreground, but it was all night, code, code, code.
Normally, this kind of thing would cause me to panic some, for fear that I might be in need of some professional help, but this time I am going to take it as a good sign. Maybe some foreshadowing that I am going to understand, and that my old brain is working extra hard to learn something new. If I start speaking in code, then i will go ahead with the original idea of some professional help.
Oh, and yes, since learning the basics of code, I was able (with Robert's help) to remodel the blog. That is something that i have been wanting to do since I started it, but wasn't sure how. I hope you all like it. Now it is more reflective of the I just finished site, and not so brown. Enjoy!

I Have Work To Do...

There has always been those studies that show successful people list their goals, and they go on about Michael Dell, and many other famous people who reached their goals. The implication is that writing down goals, and the determination to achieve them go hand in hand. I think that is a more mainstream conservative assessment of the whole Law of Attraction concept. Which ever level of that you believe, it is undeniable that once you decide, and set your heart and mind to something, you are usually surprised how easily you see things fall into place. At least that has been my experience.
The catch is you have to want something, honestly, aligned with your heart and mind. Then start to imagine it, clearly, and really convince yourself that it (your goal) is happening. That is always the tough part for me. It is easy to say, oh I am going to lose weight, , but then not really believe it, or think I am going to save money, but still go shopping. So that alignment with heart and mind it the requirement. It makes truth out of the cliche "easier said than done".
The amazing thing is that once the commitment is there, honestly, magic starts to happen. It was only this week that I was even willing to consider that maybe I could not have a full time nursing job after this one ends in March. With that hurdle overcome, I have been able to see things more clearly. Now that my heart and mind are set on this career in web design, things, amazing things have started to happen.
I emailed my teacher, he is on board, he is putting together a program for me. Then he offered me a side project to work on. Then today my good friend, Jen, is starting a new company, and wants me to revamp the website, and write the content for it as well. She has agreed to let me work with my teacher to get the whole project done. Then I can also have a link form her already busy site, and credit for the new site. Amazing timing, if I do say so myself! A job! A real web design job! Very exciting. I am expecting an email with the opening information as I write this. I will keep you all posted. Her work is very exciting, and empowering. I am actually working through her book, "Seven Dragons: A Guide to a Limitless Mind". It is the most challenging and empowering self help book I have ever read. That review is soon to come.
Fingers crossed, I have work to do!

Photoshop Wins This Round

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Yes that is right folks, in a head to head heat: its Photoshop 1 Booklover 0!
After a brutal fight lasting more than 5 hours, and 12 rounds Photoshop comes out the clear winner. Booklover has just embarrassed herself. Clearly she didn't have the serious training she needed to endure a battle with the powerhouse. She must of thought that she was working the ring with paint or draw, or on of those other light weights. She has to accept that she is now in the super heavy weights, and these programs come to the table with more power than most can imagine. Even seasoned professionals have to have serious training to get the likes of a giant like photoshop to do what they want. So it is back to the drawing board for Booklover. In a press conference after the fight, she looked worse for the wear, and beaten. However, her spirit was not broken. She said "Photoshop has won this battle, but not the war! I'll beat you next time photoshop, and then you will go down, and submit to my will!" She was shaking, and seemed slightly delirious, so we wish her a speedy recovery, and look forward to that next round!

I am a genuis!

Today I realized I am a genius. No, really it is true. The problem is that the genius part of my brain only starts to work when I am falling asleep. I have the brilliant ideas while I am drifting off to sleep. I know while I am having those ideas, that they are possibly life changing. When I am awake, I am only of average intelligence, however. The reason for that I have decided is that I enjoy sleep too much, to get up and implement the ideas I have while I am in bed. I try to tell myself to remember them when I get up. I try and try to recall the genius, but nope it's always gone. If I could pop up right then, and go with the ideas, man I'd be on fire. Actually, I have a theory, it really is proof of the Universe's twisted sense of humor.

The geniuses, and brilliant people, well they just are smart enough to get up and go with their ideas before sleep erases them for the next day. Scientists say that we only use about 10% of our brains. What if the key to access that other 90% is that you have to be half awake to use it. Then if you go to sleep, well then too bad, so sad, it's lost.

Maybe tomorrow I'll remember.